Update
I havent been online in a while, things have been crazy, kinda dropped out of cyberspace all together. Deleted myspace, deleted world of warcraft (;-p). My main focus has been on my relationship and relationships with my friends. It seems of late as spiraled in directions I did not want to follow to. Having someone tell me that the reason our year anniversay went wrong is due to me being there and my actions is not something you want to hear, ever. I believe there is other courses of action that could of been done to alieviate siduations when they escalate to that level, but that did not happen. So after this month I will be living alone. We are taking a step back to re-evaluate eachother. Living with eachother underthese circumstances is unhealthy, and its starting to show. We are not splitting up, and hopefuly this will help us out in the long run. I love her… and im already starting to miss her.
Spiral
This will be my constant summation of everything that is.
This will be my apparent reasoning for the world as I distinguish it.
It is not only damaging my nature for what I am but shackling me down towards my own entropy.
I feel no longer like the deity of my own destiny leaving me in a disposition of denial.
Why is it that when I see the faces of true nature that bestow themselves upon my doorstep that I must coherently absolve them of their own pain and bestow them the agony that lives inside me dormant?
Its not like that.
You have your pains as much as I but yet I still feel like these pains you share are the two sided sword of Gabriel.
There comes a time when you stop picking up a child after they are constantly knocked to the ground so they must learn to pick themselves up.
There comes a time when the world must realize that everything and everyone around them is a two sided mirror and we all wear the masks of the lesser of the better on the backside of our heads and hearts.
Take head these words, for some people will only see them as ramblings, and others will see the logic and chaos behind it, the culmination of the swirling abyss that is the universe and everyone has their own.
I feel like I have come to the understanding that once you understand that you are truly alone in this universe will you understand that you are at one with everything and everyone else in it.
You can take that as a denial of god and faith,
you can take that as the ranting of some imbecile,
A heartbreaker,
A heartbroken,
A genius,
A loser,
A gentleman,
A misunderstood man.
These eclectic memories are meant to fade, and these memorable times are meant to pass.
Our Time Has Run Out
Waiting for
my chance
to scream.
My hands
are burning
my dreams…
When i hold
you close
to me.
this is my sin
my desire.
Im free
From this place
my home
my prision.
I kiss
your lips
and turn around
as my world
burns
burns
to the ground.
Oh i see these bridges
and they are burning
burning to the ground.
I hear you calling,
calling with out a sound
from on the other side
i can hear
your debate
say the words
i wanted to hear
but now its just
too late
because these bridges
are burning
burning to the ground.